aiyah, felt torn. freer now i guess. anyway, couldn't train today.. was agonising. but think i should wait for my ankle to fully recover before trying. all those turns could kill me. tomorrow's gonna be a bball day.. wana play as much as possible without making bad my injury. saturday must train! arrgh. yeah, it's only 6 months away.. pretty short time.. lotsa work to do. and i finally know who my angel is.. haha. generally school's fine. somehow i get the nagging feeling this ain't over. ...

why? cuz i was looking back and im like.. was that real? think it was...can tell it was..hope i still is..cuz things don't really change that fast? i mean i dunnoe.. tell me do they? wth.. it just seems so cold these days.. people things.. it hurts to look, so i chose not to today.. i can only hope.. that counts? damn. i haven't said this for a long time, but i feel weak. like i'm empty.. filled with nothingness.. making sense? damn. damn. damn. damn you.

you know, people keep telling me my blog's very dark and stuff.. i know. but really, it's a reflection of what's going on in my mind.. can't really help it.. damn, i don't want to think.. i need basketball to set myself free a little.. but then again, would i really be released?

its like my heart is pierced.. this is close to what im feeling now..but only when you times the hurt by a million. and it still won't be close.

whoa im overwhelmed.

the emptiness is closing in around me.. taking me with it. i feel..nothing. man, i really do not know what i'm doing..how many times this past few days have i made little stupid mistakes? like everywhere..chem prac, home, while outside.. it's just like my mind's not focused.. can't concentrate already.. gonna do my chem now.

my ankle feels more painful today.. will rest it until next training..which is on thursday.. and still gotta play on friday..and saturday.. so three days in a row of intense stress on my foot. that's why must not aggravate the injury by adding unnecessary strain on it..

the old class gathering was refreshing. like it's a happy and relaxed atmosphere, which is so rare these days. like we just talked. though as usual i didn't say much, it still feels good just listening..of course with lots of laughter.

lost in translation wasn't as good as expected.. just about two ppl meeeting in a foreign land and learning about where they stand in their lives. self-exploration? i dunnoe. can't be too exciting if someone fell asleep watching it huh.. ha

the company's important.